making little steps..

so i had to make a decision on either taking an on-campus class and an online class next semester or take two online classes. well, it turns out that i got a C in my online class last semester (technology's role in the 21st century) and i got a D in my fuckin professional communications class (which i HAD a B in midquarter grades.. i don't know, what the hell). if i take the campus class, the on-campus class is at 8 am in the morning and it takes about 30 minutes just to get to the campus, so i'd probably need a 7 am ride and it usually takes me at least 2 hrs just to get my ass up in the morning because i take long showers (always have) and i need to eat breakfast. my independent living services worker scheduled me a physical therapy appointment at sister kenny to learn how to use my reverse walker. i need to bring mine along, they'll see that i can't move forward (even if i tried to walk forward) because of the stupid guards/stoppers that they have on the two front legs. it doesn't even make sense to have a walker with stoppers on the front legs. HOW THE HELL ARE YOU SUPPOSE TO WALK FORWARD WITH TWO STOPPERS? it doesn't make sense. i guess that i'm not gonna sweat the professional communications grade, but i am gonna question the professor. i'm not going to sweat it because i told myself from the start that my rehabilitation was my top priority. next came college. rehabilitation meaning getting strong enough to walk again which i believe i can do.. even if it is with a walker, that's a lot further than i used to be.